Vanessa Lim 3:44 p. m.
Change.
The car changed. BMW 3-series now. Don'tlikeit. Orchard changed. Stupid wisma underpass closed - irritating. People changed. Justin updated me yesterday on so many things about people that totally shocked me. The weather in uk changed. subzero, they say.
I hate change.
I know people who read this blog think that I'm damn lucky. I've got it all. Scholarship, career, opportunity to study in a top university.. but you know if I had the chance I'd rather work for it step by step. Climb the ladder slowly but surely, NO SHORT CUTS. I'd trade it all to be more in touch with myself, to be more sensible and more...
human. I don't look for much success in life.. I don't see how being a topgrade careerwoman will ever atone for a lack of character. I just wish I were a better person -
I know you do too. I know we both don't like the people we are now and we wish to change for the better. To put the past behind us and to just embrace the present.
We'll still be there for each other.
"Shine on, you were meant to."
Vanessa Lim 10:05 a. m.
I suppose to some people, it's easier to let their emotions show - but I'm just not like that. I cover everything up. You say I live a lie. I say I just don't wear my heart on my sleeve like a freaking brevet. I don't think covering up my emotions is LYING. I just don't see the point in being moody around people and affecting their moods so I just try my best to bottle it all up. Is that a bad thing? Does that make me a worse person? IS IT WRONG? It's just how I do things, my own prerogative. I choose not to publicly display what I feel deep down because I just don't wanna affect the people around me. I don't open up to people easily - tell me is that WRONG?
Another constellation dies
Do what you want 'cause it's your own sky
Just call me when the phone stops ringing
Thanks for coming by
I'm just glad I'm on your good side
Where it's smoldering or freezing
It's never all that easy to decide
This is the land of a thousand words
But it seems so few are worth the breath to say
Except I'll be looking after my own world
And you just keep on saving the day
I'll try to stay but it's in vain when you're far
I'm on the run to wherever you are
Vanessa Lim 4:56 p. m.