QUIT GOOGLING ME ALREADY!

I think I know what I want. I thinkk. Like Yeemeng said, no second guessing anymore. Have to be decisive for once even if it means being brutal.

All my life and especially for the past 3 years I've been outward-looking. What with canoeing and getting heavily involved in all sorts of stuff. Then came army and scholarship stuff. Tea sessions with important people. Talking to the Chief of Army. Having a sit-down in the Chief of Air Force's office. Being referred to in emails as "an SMS(W) scholar". It's all about me and how the world perceives me.

Maybe it's time to delve deep within myself for these 4 precious years I have before I enter the realm of the SAF again. Search and dig deep and perhaps I'll find something I never knew existed. I've gotta start thinking about myself and myself. Yes, not myself in relation to the people around me. Live my own life, be not selfish but more sensible. Love myself and know that whatever I do, it's because I'm doing it for my own good - not the good of others. A less eventful uni life would be ideal.

Impossible, maybe, but I'm trying to focus.