I feel like a menace.

Because I have no Uni, they're gonna ask the British High Commission to help me. Ohmygoodness. So much trouble. Thank goodness I'm not the only scholar with this erm, minor glitch. (Yeemeng!!!!)

Tomorrow's SDBF. I'm excited. Really miss the race atmosphere. I'll always remember last year's SDBF when our team finally gelled. After all that shit from Yong, it was really the proudest moment apart from Nationals. I remember how I was listening out for the commentator during the guys race, and how my heart soared when I heard him say that their boat was pulling away and maintaining the lead. The image of the guys huddling together before the race was really unforgettable. And of course, who could forget the image of 20 over girls tearing before we went down for our 12-man crew finals. I loved that race. Every single stroke was exhilarating, and when Michelle started yelling out the names of all the girls, there was this striking and fierce pride that stirred within, urging me to push on till the last millimetre of the 750m race.

It isn't the same team tomorrow, but it's the same Njcanoeing spirit (:

I'm getting increasingly paranoid about my uni.

Whenever people at the airbases ask me where I'm gonna study and what, I have to sheepishly tell them I don't know, then I have to smile shyly at their shocked faces. RAAARGH. How???

I did manage to unwind today though. Met up with Zurong & Yunhui, the dynamic duo. Made Yunhui try on the green Levis v-neck tee that Jinping was feeling kinda iffy about getting for Kelvin. Turns out it looks REALLY gay. Urgh. To think that baby was also eyeing that exact same shirt. Nuh-uh.

It's strange that sometimes when everything seems to be going right for you, you can't help but wonder if it's just too right and too perfect for comfort. Like now, I'm officially an SMS Scholar - many would yearn to be in my position. Yet there's this nagging feeling within me, something that I'm trying my darndest to push to a dusty corner of my mind. An odd sensation or paranoia that when I'm just cruising along, everything's suddenly gonna collapse without warning. My future might seem well taken care of, but yet in every sense, it comes attached (in fine print) with a significant amount of uncertainty.

Universities are giving me a headache. If things don't work out with King's, then well I guess I've gotta settle with Edinburgh. Okay call me superparanoid but this could just be an.. omen. There's a little tinge of regret of not applying to unis when I was still in j2, then maybe LSE would've accepted and things wouldn't have gotten so frantic. So now I have a scholarship but no university (apart from Edinburgh). Well done van.

Sigh. Photos from the wedding:

He's off to Bruneiiii. Sent him off last night and it was like madness at the airport. So many black&white OCTs congregating outside Burger King, and they took damn long to get their boarding passes done and gather everybody. The advantage of travelling in a big group is that they get SINGAPORE AIRLINES. We took Brunei Airways. Baaaah.

Attended Cpt Seah's wedding today. Mannn it was really so damn sweet and it got me all fuzzy inside, itching to don a gown and walk down the aisle and exchange vows. Gosh. Mrs Seah is so pretty. She looked so gorgeous in that fuschia gown. Oh and it was practically a WOCC gathering too. Was nice to see people like Shen Ye, Huiluan, Angele again. I think only four of us were missing - Joyce, Izzah, Russ and Dragon. Sigggh. I miss the BMT days when we would make Mdm Chan & Lta Peter laugh till they teared, and when we'd march as a platoonfull of girls, being able to change the lyrics of all the army songs to suit our gender. BMT's the best time, really. Waiting for people to send me the photos. Someone tell me HOW on earth I could have forgotten my camera?? Bah.

Oh and we FINALLY got our rings done today. Yipppeee. At least now he can bring it to Brunei (:

He's leaving for Brunei on Mondayyyyy sniffsnifffsniff. I guess we've really gotta deal with spending time apart from each other. For now I'll just countdown to 6th July. We gymmed today!!!! Hohoho I can't bench press as much now. Damn weeeeak.

I cut my hair, finally. I LIKEE! hahahaha. Bleargh these few days have been kinda busy. I've officially fallen in love with Apaches. If I can convert to pilot I'd wanna fly that. It's sooooo hightech. All the avionics.. wow. The targetting thing was fantastic too, plus it's dead accurate. I went away from that baby feeling like I'd died and gone to Heli Heaven. HAHA.

OH and I'm gonna eat healthily, I promise. (Nicolas would be proud of me) Gonna try to go back to my old canoeing diet. NO JUNK. Plus I'm gonna try and get used to eating veggies more often. I'm a carnivore, but FOR YOU I'm gonna have a balanced diet (:

Last thing - I bought my Macbook. It's four times faster than my current Powerbook and you can use Windows on it too. (Though I doubt I'll be using that very often) Plus it's nice and small (13inch) - perfect for lugging around uni - and comes with the iSight (a built in webcam thingy for video conferencing). The best thing? It's BLACK. Come on now everybody - sighhhh in contentment. $2588 - yay!

Just came back from Foxtrot's social night. Hah well apparently, I'm featured in some Foxtrot blog, quoting an excerpt from MY blog, announcing that I'm Thong's date. And because of this, I actually got an "honourable mention" by their Wingcomd in his opening speech. HAHAHA I was damn embarrassed. This MIGHT just get quoted again, but I don't mind cos it's pretty funny. Somehow, based on my site tracker, a lot of people have been searching for "Foxtrot Wing" in blogsearches, and this site DEFINITELY comes up. hehehehe I'm quite amused. Anyway, Thong did a great job with Unwell in Foxtrot Idol. (Ok thong, I've blogged. lol)

Oh and today was a sucky day. Was rushing back from SBAB today and needed to take a cab urgently. Khatib station had no POSB ATM, so decided to take the train down to Yio Chu Kang. Alighted, and was aghast to find no POSB ATM. Boarded next train again, took to Ang Mo Kio. Alighted, and was FUMING when I found no POSB ATM. Argh! So I decided to just get a cab and ask the uncle to drop me near my place, where I vaguely remembered seeing some ATMs. To my absolute horror - you guessed it - they were not POSB!!!!!!! At this point I was already pissedbeyondpissed. If I were a kettle, steam would be coming out of my spout. Or should I say. ears. So now, the situation stands as such --> I have a cab, but no money to pay. SOOOO I had to go home and dig through my mom's Secret Cash Stash which prior to today, I didn't know existed. For a cabfare that would normally cost me $5, I paid $8.

Good grief. All this to get to social night on time - and the actual thing started SO LATE! Darrrrrnn.

I guess the common perception now is that he has to get sword of honour/merit in order to match up to me cos I'm a scholar. A relationship isn't about MATCHING UP. I couldn't give a shit if he were freaking outofcoursed now or something, and got demoted to 3SG. It's not about rank, it's not about status, it's about the emotional connection that goes much much deeper than that. We're not superficial people, and that's all that matters. What he said about sums up everything: "why can't they bloody understand that I can't care less abt the other girls and I just want you."

I guess this really affected him, but for me I'm beyond caring about what people say. So what if getting the scholarship means that I'm gonna commission soon and he has to call me mdm? You think I'll pull rank? BULL. Plus there are a lot of people who keep telling him not to wait for me when I go abroad. (4years uni + 2years WSO FTR training - UK & France) Uhhh, ever heard of keeping your filthy noses out of our business? That's why I marvel at how different he is from other guys.

Anyway, he's en route (literally) to his senior bar now. 23km route march and a charge up Elephant Hill in FBO. Funny how all Airwing had to do to get our senior bar was survive through pure boredom. All we had was a parade, but the army people have to go through so much. More pride, I think.

Oh, and some people are SO BLOODY DELUDED. I don't know whether to roll on the floor and laugh till my guts spill out, or whether to get so hopelessly exasperated. Good grief.

Okay, now that I'm slightly calmer..

Just came back from meeting him at Jurong Point. (YES I travelled halfway across the island) Had Crystal Jade. Was craving xiaolongbao and I really wanted to drink soup. Lunch was fantastic too - froglegs. Especially the one with the chicken essence soup. Been eating lotsa good stuff lately. Yesterday it was a plate of potato wedges - shared - with melted cheese dip at TCC. Then after dinner we shared a Frosted Chocolate Malt. Come to think of it, not much of a diet huh? Damn.

Like what he said, suddenly everything was RIGHT today. The Tango WSM found his 11B - which he was really fretting over, then he had nightsout.. I got good news about my scholarship.. today's a happy day! WHEEE.

"When I'm with you, there's always that.. spark."

AAAAARGH!! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA SMS (W) SCHOLAR KTHX :) YAYAYAYAYAY!! Congrats to the rest too! ALL of us got it :) I'm like aaarggh this feels so surreal! So many people that jinping and i need to treat but honestly I don't care hehehee. Just got my phone bill from the brunei trip and it amounted to like $244 but I couldn't give two hoots either! I'm practically jumping around. BWAHAHAHA.

GRRR now just to await uni replies!!! Edinburgh's replied but I don't really wanna go thereeee. TEEHEEHEEEEE I'M GOING MAD.

edit: and baby has nightsout tonight so YAY could today get any better? WHEEE.

It's an amazing feeling, peering through the sands of time and watching the events of the past few months unfold. It seems strangely surreal, how after all the crap that I've had to endure from some people, everything just happens to right itself just like that. All the wrong turns, stumbles and falls brought me here.

Well it sure hasn't been easy, but I'm glad that we did start off the way we did. From the "hey, I think you look really familiar" on March 20th, to where we are now. We've come a long way, and it's for sure that we're not stopping here. As the weeks slip by, we learn more about each other, but yet there's this odd feeling that we've known each other all our lives. Yeah I know, you'd never hear the old me saying something like that, but that only shows one thing - the cynic in me is mellowing. It's nice knowing that no matter what you do, there's someone out there who'd wholeheartedly accept you - idiosyncracies included.

The past month has been great. He's my best friend, confidante, shoulder-to-cry-on, and he's always someone I can count on to give levelheaded opinions and advice. SEVENTEEN. It's gonna be such a special number now (:

And to think that if I hadn't signed on, all this wouldn't have happened. Who would've thought?

EEP! Armour?? I really wonder how they do the postings.. if he wants infantry, why not give it to him? I'm sure many people would gladly trade places. I keep telling people that he wants to be a commando! But now I guess it's not possible. Anyway, Armour's pretty cool - makes me think about what would've happened if I hadn't gone to Air, since it'd have been my choice too then we'd have pro term together also.

Heh sometimes I fantasize too much. Hail the black berets - knights of valour wahoo.

YAY! New template! Was getting sick of all the purple. Well the previous layout stands as the LONGEST time I've ever gone without changing my template. Heh. Well this one's greenish cos baby likes green and I really miss him :( Yeah and it features Jean Grey cos I think she's bloody enigmatic and I can kinda relate to her in some ways. The whole Wolverine-Jean thing is so tragic. Argh. Anyway, lyrics on the graphic are from Yellowcard's Gifts and Curses, and the sidebar lyrics are from Magic by Ben Folds (Five).

Been having quite bad diarrhea. JP: here's the answer to why I kept going to the toilet yesterday at CAB. pffbt. Don't wanna risk going for training and dying on the boat or something. GROWL I can't believe they're still stuck in there cleaning weapons!! Gotta go buy daddy's present later.

We ended damn early today! When we were driven out of CAB it was only 3pm so I'm hoooome like yayee. Anyway it's like twonil to England and I wanted to stay up last night to watch the match/wait for Sierra to come back from Platoon Live Firing but I was soooo zonked. He finally msged me at 1am but by that time I was already dead to the world.

Since I'm insanely bored, here are 10 random facts about me.

1. I read all editorials (Newspapers, Magazines etc) from the back.
2. I squeeze all tubes (toothpaste, paint) from the bottom and get very annoyed when people don't bother doing so.
3. I hate most veggies.
   
4. I own more than 10 lipglosses of which I only use 2 faithfully.
5. I go crazy over perfume bottles and I'm starting a collection.
   
6. I would love to be an interior designer
7. I love ginger.
   
8. I want the stuffed merlion from Galleria DFS!
9. I used to wake up at 2am when I was in camp thinking I needed to fall in. (This happened waaaaay too many times)
10. I think guys with piercings are damn hot - but not too excessive, please.

Heh tomorrow's our day! I lovelovelove weekends (:

Changi Airbase is fantastic. I've been to 112, 121 and 145 SQN so far and everyone's been so hospitable. Learnt more about the KC135 and the Fokker50 planes, and got re-acquainted with the F16s again. AARGHHH everyone in CAB is just sosososososo nice and I really don't want my attachment to end! Sniffle.

Anyway, still no (confirmed) news about the scholarship. The general note is that the 4 of us at the SMS board did very well.. but I don't dare to revel in euphoria before the final result is out. For now I'm still taking it as I majorly screwed up, so I'll be expecting the worst. Anyway, Edinburgh accepted my application, so I guess even if LSE doesn't reply me and I DO get the scholarship, I still have somewhere to go. Everything depends on the damn scholarship nowwww. Without confirmation I'm practically in limbo.

Okay, I'm really bored.. so:

1) How old do you wish you were?
21!

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At home, watching channelnewsasia.

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
KICK IT. I'm violent like that.

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
Much too kind.

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Hips

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Uh, French, Latin

7) Do you know your neighbors?
Not really! We're so different! Chinese speaking (them) vs English speaking (me)

8) What do you consider a vacation?
Beach balls, pina colada on an island really far away from home, without my mobile or internet or any form of contact with the outside world. Oh, and I'd bring someone special (:

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
Sometimes!

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
YES. But it isn't particularly applicable to me now. It's a question I should pose to him.

11) Are you touchy feely?
Depends..

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
NO. Take it from me, past experiences.

13) Dream job?
WSO FIGHTER. Haha no, artist probably.

14) Favorite channel(s)?
ESPN, Starsports, CNA

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
Town! Or anywhere with baby (:

16) Showers or Baths?
Showers! I don't like wrinkly fingers.

17) Do you paint your nails?
Not regularly. But I got a pedicure done recently.

18) Do you trust people easily?
Yeah. I'm a simple-minded person.

19) What are your phobias?
I'm bloody scared of crowded places, falling while running down the stairs, going downslope. Most of all I fear fear itself.

20) Do you want kids?
FOUR! But my career might not allow that to happen. Sigh.

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Yes

22) Where would you rather be right now?
Platoon Live Firing with Sierra. Or rather, just one person from Sierra would be good!

23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
My creampuff (:

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
Somewhere in between..

25) Are you paranoid?
VERY.

26) Are you impatient?
Sometimes..

27) Who can you relate to?
Not many people.

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
Uh, neutral?

29) Have you been burned by love?
Burned would be a bit of an understatement.

30) What's your favorite pick-up line?
I HATE PICKUP LINES.

31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile?
It's silent

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping!

33) What did the last text on your cellphone say?
"... But you claimed you were not that full haha saving space right? I don't believe you cause you are un-believable hahaha" -- John on Kuishinbo eclairs.

34) Whose bed did you last sleep in?
Mine.

35) What color shirt are you wearing?
White polo tee.

36) Most recent movie you watched?
X3, again.

37) Name three things you have on you at all times?
Mobile, 11B, Wallet

38.) What color are your bed sheets?
White

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
400+?

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
Drumstick :)

41) What's your favorite town/city?
I wanna go back to Seoul..

42) I can't wait till:
He books out.

43) Who got you to join LJ?
(LJ = livejournal) Damn, that was sooo long ago.

44) What did you have for dinner last night?
The beef noodles + xiaolongbao at dintaifung!

45) How tall are you barefoot?
159

47) Do you own a gun?
I wish I had my own SAR.

48) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Tea or Coffee

49) What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
AHA. AHA. That's for you to find out. lol

56) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
I'll be 29 - erm. Married (hopefully), qualified WSO (FTR) at a SQN?

57) Last thing you ate?
Nasi Lemak from Changi Village

58) What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't sing.

59) Last thing that made you laugh?
Making fun of CPT Sam in his car.

60) Worst injury you've ever had?
Chronic Lateral Compartment Syndrome (Left fibula)

61) Does someone have a crush on you?
He's doing a pretty good job of hiding it.

62) What's your favorite candy?
Any type of chocolate!

63) What song do you want played at your funeral?
Sweetest Thing - U2

GRRROWL. I don't really know what to say about the interview, but I think it went a bit *too* smoothly for comfort. Everything I said was just met with nods and more nods, and nothing went challenged! Plus, out of all of us, mine was the shortest, taking only slightly more than 5min, and after I came out of the room, they were LAUGHING. Nownow it can either mean I bombed it or I aced it. No in between. Well, I'll just await the results then, but whatever it is, NO REGRETS! Oh and there were zero current affairs questions. Damn, after how I glued myself to BBC, I can't even show of my "vast" knowledge? Heh.

Now the next thing to worry about is how to get to Sierra's Social Night on time.. It's a bigger headache than the interview, I swear.

Crunchtime, van.

So yeah this is it. My future, my career is gonna be determined come 315pm today. I can bomb it, I can leave them grappling with indecision.. or I can ace it. It's scary to think that your entire LIFE is gonna be in the hands of a merciless 18-member panel who dictates whether you eventually turn out a high flyer or a.. plebeian - to put it crudely. Nevertheless, I think I'll just go in with the mentality that scholar or not, I'm gonna make a difference, spend my remaining time in the force fruitfully. That way, I know I'll certainly have nothing to lose.

To come so far only to get shot down would be an immense blow - I'm not denying that. But to even have reached this level, I think my own expectations of myself have been surpassed. Back in NJ, getting this close to a prestigious scholarship was to me unfathomable, but I'm not saying that "this close" is enough for me. If given more opportunities, I'd rather grasp the stinging nettle firmly and not shy away from lofty targets and ideals.

I think I've changed in these 6 months. Less frivolous, less airyfairy, but more rooted to what's important, and most importantly, more mature. Being in the SAF has allowed me to see things differently from most people, realising the importance of the things in life that we take for granted. Most crucial would probably be the fact that I've learnt to be more independent, more in tune with my thoughts and emotions.

I don't know why I'm suddenly in such a reflective mood, but I guess it's necessary to precede every interview with self-reflection. Wish me luck, but I'll just prepare myself for the worst - so I won't take it too hard when it happens.

BOO! Finally bought my dress for Sierra's Social Night. We really spent DAMN LONG shopping for our stuff today it was like, prom revisited. URGH. When we finally got all our stuff it was like, 8pm already gasp. The black shirt really looked nice on him (:

My sis played this song last night while I was watching England vs Paraguay and now it's just stuck in my head.

Chew came over after training today and we headed to Safti to watch the commissioning parade. He was in no1! Wawawawawa he looked damn cool, but it'd have been even better if he were the one commissioning. Nevermind, SIX MORE MONTHS! Hehehe. Anyway, we didn't have tickets, but I saw Lta Adrian and got him to pull strings so that we could get onto the grandstand.

Oh, I'll be going to Foxtrot's Social Night too with Thong, as a favour. Fort Canning - nice place. Makes me wonder why on earth Air Wing's Social Night is at FURAMA and Sierra's is at CHEVRONS. Gawsh. That's Foxtrot for you - welfare wing.

Interview's on Monday, and I got this feeling that no matter how well I prepare, they've kinda written me off already. I don't know.. I've never felt this unsure and jittery before. Honestly, I'll have nothing to lose if I don't get SMS and they offer me SAS or LSA instead. For SAS, I'll get to go to Aussie/study locally, which is what I prefer, but of course, SMS is of higher calibre, higher prestige... if you put it that way. I won't be too sore about not getting it, but there's bound to be a bit of disappointment - and I hate being disappointed. Ohwell, at least I know that I'm definitely staying in the force whatever they give me, so my career's pretty much stable . Nevertheless, I'm gonna prepare myself for the worst.

Managed to organise a dinner with all the artsfac girls at Din Tai Fung next Wed. Only Sam won't be there cos she's abroad. It's really been a while.. and it's the last time we're all gonna gather before Bea leaves on the 16th. Makes you wonder - where did all the time go? I've been in the SAF for nearing six months now, and things have really changed. Everything's different now it's scary :(

Anyway, the interview's changed to Monday, so I've got tomorrow free yayayayayyay. Will be meeting Cpt Boh at ADSD for a short chat and advice on the scholarship though, but after that I'm gonna go look for a dress to wear at Sierra's Social Night, which has also been changed to 13th. Oh, and baby's back from fieldcamp tomorrow (:


At Airwing's End-of-course Dinner! This was after drinking VSOP too fast. Heheheh. YAY tomorrow's coming sooooon. *beams

I went to town in my No.3 today! Hehehe. We ended a little earlier today, at like 4pm, so I decided to take a trip down to look for a biggg bag that could hold my stuff. Coincidentally, Zurong had the day off and was in town too, so met up with him for shopping and for dinner. The divers, apparently, are SUPER gossipy. Haha. Somehow lotsa people in NDU supposedly know about all the stuff that happened in Brunei. Anyways, received a lot of stares from people as usual, cos it's not everyday you see an airforce cadet shopping, but I decided to be impervius to the curious looks.

Highlight of today was probably the visit to Airforce School to talk to 2LT Lynn Lee (last year's SMS scholar). Met all the airwing people again after sooo long. Haha LTA Jimmy was real excited to see me cos he said that the officers missed bullying me. They're rotting away in AFS too, but at least they have people to talk rubbish with. It's only me and Jinping till 26th July, and I think we'll get sick of each other lol. OH, and I met Jeffrey there too. He just suddenly tapped me at the cookhouse and I got a big shock. Think today was one of our longest conversations in almost two whole years, but it was surprising how easy it was. I'm glad that there wasn't any semblance of restraint or awkwardness from either of us. We were chitchatting like old friends, like nothing sour had ever occurred, and that's probably the best thing one can hope for after emerging from a friendship gone awry.

Tomorrow's gonna be interesting. I'll be watching Excercise Strongbow & Spearmint. (No idea what they're doing) BUT I'll have to stay in Murai till 4am ohmygoodness. Hope they won't ask us to report early on Thursday or we're deaddddd :(

Today marked the first day at my first squadron during this rotational period. It's at Murai Camp - the UAV (Unmanned Aerial Vehicles) Squadrons. I practically did NOTHING today. Jinping and I arrived at 0730, and were held up at the gate till 0800 because we didn't have clearance to enter the damn place. GAH. Then they told us that the people who were supposed to give us the briefings were at some ops meeting and would be late. SO, we went for breakfast with Lta Kelvin till like, 9, and rotted in the Syndicate Room till about 1030 before the officers came. We were literally STUCK in that tiny room for the whole day cos we wouldn't wanna walk around since we're like not familiar with the place.

Then in the afternoon, Murai hosted the Temasek Seminar and I met Charmaine and Sharon Chin. Shared a bit about my BMT experience, and about my scholarship with the NJ IP3s and some RJ people. We felt so.. old. In the past it used to be us in their shoes, asking people questions, and now the very same questions we asked are thrown back to us. It's a very mixed feeling, knowing how far you've come since a year ago, but yet also realising that there's a lot of things you're still ignorant about and you've still got a lot to learn.

Was really sleeeepy when I got back home, but I got a call from him (: Apparently, while they were at fieldcamp waiting for Ex Nightbird to start, Adrian just suddenly thrust him his handphone and went "You know what to do." Despite him saying that it wasn't necessary, Adrian kept insisting and he called while HIDING BEHIND A BUSH OMG. Good time for practice of cover & concealment huh? Anyway that call really made my day cos it was a very pleasant surprise, although we both reached the consensus that we shouldn't talk for too long cos as a cadet, he shouldn't be taking advantage of all these little privileges. Nevertheless, I'm a happyhappy girl. -beams-

Oh, I'm sure most of you have heard about the whole fiasco about a local business school. That absolutely ludicrous video that's been circulating on Youtube. I don't know the origins of this video, so if anyone knows, please let me know! I don't know whether to smack my forehead and groan or to break into peals of laughter cos it's just so.. UNBELIEVABLE.

Today was a nice day :)

We met for breakfast at Bishan, then went over to orchard for an early movie. Watched She's the Man on Mindy's recommendation, and I think for a movie bordering on chickflick, it was pretty good. Had a lot of lighthearted moments, and it was definitely WAAAY better than Benchwarmers.

Oh and yes, ladies and gentlemen, I'm proud to announce the return of THE TEAM!


The first FULLTEAM gathering since 020106. It's been what - four months!? Gosh. Happy Birthday Chiteng! I lovelovelove you guys. We BBQ-ed at Peishan's, then went upstairs for the cake and the dessert. Oh, check out shanshan's damn funny cheekopek glasses!

Bwahahhaha. They make me look like some kinda housefly or something. Can't believe she actually wears the thing! But well I had a damn good time - lotsa laughs as usual. Mindy was a horrible chef cos she kept insisting the stingray was cooked when it wasn't, and when we protested she said that she meant to treat us to sashimi ohmygoodness. Then there was the whole hooha with Peishan's brother again, but the kid learnt his lesson and shut himself in his room the whole time so as to avoid us pesky hooligans :)

It really was time well spent, catching up with everyone again.. with Mindy and Peishan entertaining us with their stories, and the teachers (Mindy, Shumin, Rach, Xintian) giving us a crashcourse on how to discipline kids. EH CHUAYIFANG - if you're reading this - what's this I hear about you scotchtaping the kids to a pillar and threatening to stufff spoons into their mouths?!! You absolute tyrant you.. ruining the kids' childhoods! Hehehe.

Gosh, I can't WAIT for the next time we get together again. I love my teammmmm (:

I took pictures today when I decided to take bus 100 all the way to cityhall area instead of alighting at Aljunied and taking the train down. Wrong move - cos I didn't know 100 doesn't stop near suntec but instead, after Raffles Hotel, it goes all the way to the padang area. So I had to walk in the hot sun all the way to suntec. At least something good came out of my little misadventure. I love the fountain, and the war memorial's terribly poignant. That area was brimming with languour today, and I kinda regret rushing to get to suntec cos everyone was late anyway.

Sigh, they can't book out today cos they have to do areacleaning till 1am?? Eh? He's so sweet.. actually grabbing concertina wire while wearing a singlet just so he could get it over fast and try to book out tonight to see me tomorrow. You're so adorable :)

Oh and I'm currently reading Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro.

Despite losing weight after Brunei, it's certain that at the rate we're going, we're gonna gain it all back. This is our fourth buffet in the week lol. First there was the endofcourse appreciation dinner, then during our R&R phase we had a Thai buffet for lunch plus an Indian one for dinner. THEN today we met up for Kuishinbo at Suntec. Heh well the NDU people ended up going there too which really shocked me cos I wasn't expecting them to change their minds esp since zurong told me they weren't going anymore. Eclairs there are damn goooood. I had like, ten. Gah. I guess throughout my time in Airwing, the aircrew have really played an integral role, esp the officers on course. Despite the fact that I'm more often than not their main source of entertainment (bullying, teasing etc) I do appreciate their presence, not just as mentors but as friends too. Wow, I can't believe I'm saying this. They better appreciate MY presence too cos without me, who's gonna spice up their training with hilarious anecdotes at my expense? Was telling them about my SAW night firing.

LTA Allen: VANESSA!!!! Do you know where your shots are landing??!??!
Me: Honestly sir, NO. The helmet is damn big and the night vision device is at my NOSE instead of my eyes!
Lta Allen: Your shots are landing on the lane 1 metal plate! Vanessa, what lane are you??
Me: ER, LANE TWO SIR!

Omg. Well it wasn't my fault that they affixed the NVDs on helmets of a standard size M (I wear S) Hehehe. Good times.

THEN watched Benchwarmers and it really deserved it's twostar rating. Let's just say that the pair of Zurong & Yunhui are damn funny. Watching them talk to each other is like some standup comedy. Oh and Zurong actually threw his ticket into the bin - or according to him "it was stuck to my greentea bottle!" He actually removed the lid of the bin and started poking around inside to my absolute mirth. I should've got a photo. Classic! Plus, Yunhui spent really long thinking about how to get home. Can't believe that he's actually woonhowe's senior. It's true that the world is shrinking - and fast.

Gonna go dragonboat with the alumni tomorrow at 2. Time to work off those calories and maintain my fitness again! I know it's a long shot - but I hope he really gets to book out tonight!!

Whoa I'm back from Brunei at last. Lets just say that it was an experience of a lifetime, but it's also something I never ever wanna do again. For all the 5 months I've been in the SAF, it was only at this point when I was in the jungle chopping nipah leaves and when I was forced to kill the quail that I actually QUESTIONED myself. "OMG van, what have you gotten yourself into, what the hell are you doing hereeeeee???!" Seriously, it was that bad. To twist and pull the head off the quail, watch its wings flap and convulse involuntarily, to skin the bird and feel the warmth that had yet to leave its body.. I wanted to puke. My hands were really trembling as I skinned the poor bird, but I had no choice. My whole career depended on that thing. Sigh.

Anyway, it was really a good learning experience. It's also prob the last time I'm gonna be touching my No.4 and my SBO. A little bit of nostalgia there. Come monday I'll be reporting to TASC for my attachment. It's now time to don the crisp, pressed No.3. The BLUES for real now, leaving the GREEN for good. Somehow, I know there'll always be a bit of the armygirl in me, still dormant and suppressed, but yet quietly satiated.

Then it really made my day when I popped by to Sierra and spent some time with him. ELEVEN DAYS OMG. It's really amazing seeing him again. It's just so good to be back home. Brunei was kinda hellish, if I may repeat myself.

And it's another aircrew gathering tomorrow, then BBQ with the girls team on sat at peishan's!!!!!!!!! At LONG LAST omg. Then sunday's our day. The weekend's looking pretty promising :)