Okay, so this is a little update, mostly for Sam's benefit (:

Universities are giving me a big headache. The scholarship centre told me VERY last minute that they want me to apply for UK universities as well, so for the past few weeks I've been frantically scurrying around trying to get my referrals and stuff done up. Gah. So, I'm applying to Edinburgh, Kings and Manchester.. as for the rest, I've been accepted to Melbourne and NewSouthWales for Aussie, still awaiting news from ANU. Plus, NUS has also accepted my FASS app.

As for which one I'm gonna choose, everything's depending on my scholarship. The last round of interviews is in June, so by then I'll know if I get SMS or not. If I DO get SMS, I'll prob go to UK (and that's also depending if they accept me, but if not, we'll see if the board allows me to go to Aussie). If i get SAS (SAF Academic) then it'll be and Aussie uni. If LSA (Local Study Award) then it'll be.. NUS I suppose. For the latter two, I'll only be able to start studying in 2007.

Okay, that's about it in a nutshell for now. I've got about 3 more weeks left in OCS, then it's off to BRUNEI for Jungle Survival Training arrrrgh.

Suddenly feeling incredibly nostalgic.

And stop crying your heart out

Well. I feel as if I don't know how to write anymore. Like my language has.. atrophied. I open up this blogger window and I feel empty and debilitated.. seeing white used to make me all tingly with excitement for a white canvas/paper/blogger window used to mean uncharted territory, for me to leave an indelible imprint. But now, it's languishing. Creativity nullified.

I wanted to write about nostalgia, about poignance, but I can't. I realised that nostalgia is too powerful an emotion to translate into mere pixels on a screen. Nothing could have prepared me for this sudden wave of emotion.. I'm lost.

So I made what probably was the biggest decision of my life. More important than my date for the impending social night, more important than my choice of uni. I'm crossing over to Air, to be a WSO Fighter - the missile guy behind the pilot in the F16. So.. there's gonna be a lot of hooha, I know, and a ton of pressure's gonna be on me to perform since I'll be a pioneer. Nevertheless, I'll prob see everything as a challenge, and a great opportunity for myself to make a difference and pave the way for future generations of female WSO Fighters to come. But I'll miss Sierra like shit. My Platoon1 Section3. My buddy. The remaining WOCC army people. The instructors.. man. This is so melodramatic. I love the army, I thoroughly enjoy what I'm doing now - live firing etc, but like what Woon Howe said, you must like what you do and not do what you like. Wise words indeed. He also pointed out to me that I'm prolly gonna be the only one there who's qualified to fire all four of the army service term weapons - Matador, M203, SAW and SAR21, not forgetting the M16 too. Fwahahaha.

Sigh, to people like Dav, Cher, Sam, Mel, Bea, Amanda, Vin, Chewy, Mo, Shiwei, Henry.. I miss you all SO SO MUCH. We've really gotta get together soon okay. Plus the girls team too. Sighs. I feel so estranged.

Wow, I'm back after 3 weeks confinement, and it feels so surreal. For one, the guys have come in, and Daowei, Gordon and Navin are in my wing :) Been seeing people like Thong, Alan, Mo, Malcolm, Junxu, Daryl around in camp too and it's nice saying hi to people I know in the cookhouse.

As for my service, I've decided.. army it is. Must say that the past 3 weeks have been bloody eventful. I'm sure almost everyone's heard about Colonel Bernard, who passed away suddenly during the Singapore Biathlon. He was the one who put in a good word for my during my Scholarship interview, playing a big part in helping me retain my provisional SMS status despite my not meeting the grade. The interview was the last time I saw him, and then I got the news during the Army recruitment visit. It was a huge shocker, and it really affected me cos I never got to thank him. So we attended his wake and then came another bombshell.. he's Amanda Choo's uncle. Whoa. So.. I know I'm gonna have to gear up in order to do well in Service Term and hopefully get past the 3rd and last interview board in June.

I've been enjoying myself so far.. although now that the girls have all moved to Mids/Air, the 4th level corridor seems strangely empty.. From 22 girls on 3rd Jan, we're now left with 11. Nevertheless.. 41st WOCC would always, ALWAYS have a special place in my heart.