Thanks for the dinner today Dav. I really really love all of you. Dav, Sam, Mel, Henry, Chewy, and the rest - Mo, Vin, Yif, Bea, Amanda, Cher, Shiwei. YAY. This friendship is really really dear to me, and it's about the only thing other than the team and the AEP gang that I'll miss in NJ. It suddenly struck me that our lives have just begun to evolve and unfold like a little budding flower. How the inevitable fact is that we're gonna all go our separate ways soon, and how there won't be the same little comfort zone that I always shrink into. Everyone, everything will change. Most of them are going abroad, I'm still hesitant. The guys will be in NS.. things are gonna be so so so different.

I'm gonna miss the lunch breaks, the free periods, the sudden declarations of "I WANT TO EAT ICE CREAM. NOW!". Barley with more barley (Dav). "I want a pau!" (Sam). Yongtaufoo. The birthday celebrations in the canteen, though I've never had one in the canteen cos the date's really off. GOSH. It's so sad ):

Nostalgia and reminiscence aside, got a msg from Constance telling me that Yong changed the lineup and I'll be rowing T1 instead tomorrow for Ubin. AUUUGHH. I don't know if that's good or not. I'm kinda scared I'll get lost tomorrow cos T1 girls is the slowest craft and I don't want to be left straggling and get all disoriented cos everywhere is just trees, water, sky. "In the empty immensity of earth, sky and water" - I quoth Conrad in Heart of Darkness. I'm gonna be so alone in that boat. It's a fight against the elements, a battle against myself, my OWN heart of darkness. But I love a challenge, so, game on. I've prepared the anti-sun equipment too, except for sunblock cos I've run out. Yes, GAME ON, Van, GAME ON.