It's really terrible that Sudden Realisations can actually take your mind completely off your International History question that you're supposed to prepare for Mark Lo tomorrow. Like uhm, Gorbachev who? All at once it's almost as if all thoughts about why the USSR collapsed is totally beyond my scope of concern. Which is bad.

And aforementioned Sudden Realisation isn't anything good either. I mean, what else can take my mind of the glorious subject of HISTORY!! You know honestly I don't know what I'm getting myself into or why I'm doing what I'm doing that is supposed to make me happy but is failing big time and I'm slipping into an abyss of.. nothingness. The point is: I Am Not Happy. You there, listen up. I'm not happy okay? So please do something about it.

Dear Life,
You know what, this isn't really working out, but it's not you, it's me. Or maybe it's someone else. But Mr Life, don't worry I ain't gonna abandon you yet. I'm not even thinking about it. I just want some chocolate. Is that possible? I want to massage a cow so its fats gets evenly distributed eventually ending up in the slaughterhouse and producing KOBE BEEF. I want to fly a plane. PWEETY PWEAASE? It can't happen here you know. As in, why? Isn't it true that every single person living on this planet deserves the basic right of happiness? Why then, Mr Life, do you screw things up? They say C'est La Vie, but it's bullshit!!! No no no why must you be this way? I don't believe there isn't any avenue for me to OVERTHROW you, Mr Life. But I'm not decisive enough to change you, not bold enough to perform a complete overhaul just like what the USSR's economy needed. So, does that make me a Gorbachev? Is everything gonna (gasp) COLLAPSE??! Oh no oh no oh no. Help meeeeeee.
Lovelovelove xoxo,
VAN!