I'm really losing focus. I want to throw away all my notes and burnburnburn them till they're nothing but a lump of grey ash. Watched Liverpool's match yesterday although they're damn boring now. They were rubbish yesterday and I wasted my time. It was so ironic cos Cisse and co were trying but failing to find the net then at the bottom of the screen, it would flash every five minutes "Chelsea 1, Chelsea 2, Chelsea 3, Chelsea 4, Chelsea 5". Yes, irony at its best. They were a mess and why did Benitez pick Sissoko and/or Zenden ahead of Riise is totally beyond me. No team spirit no unity no whatever. Captain Carra was by far the best player and if we could, my dad and I were talking about killing Sissoko. Hah.

It's like drollery these days and my momentum is going waaay off. I think perhaps the events of the past few days really affected me a lot and my mind is constantly preoccupied with stuff that I cannot for the life of me concentrate. Home is so distracting. From tomorrow onwards I'm staying away from home.. school, KAP, Caltex House or wherever. Anywhere's more conducive than here. I want to paint but I'm lazy to set up all my paints plus my watercolours are locked up in the art cabinet! Sheesh.

You know how life is a seesaw or a sine curve. That's how it is now. Down up down up down up and the flux is becoming routine. Oxymoronic but true. I did MJ stats paper and I can do almost everything whoopee. Sigh.