The cynic is back.

Enough with saccharine fairytale idyll. Done with the positivity and the sunny personality for it doesn't get you anywhere. Shut yourself up in a tight little box and never ever open up again cos the repercussions are unpredictable and more often than not hurtful. Arcadia seems far off and yes that's how it is honestly. I was in the bus to town today and saw this couple and the girl was like WHACKING the guy's head, albeit in a playful way but omg ouch?! It was like whackwhackwhack and the thumping sound could be heard three seats away. Lunatic. At least I know even if I'm trying to be cheeky I wouldn't whack my boyfriend's head and pull his hair in PUBLIC. Sheesh.

I guess as we rely on others we all have ulterior motives. Ok maybe it's not always "ulterior" but we more often than not have a motive for being close to someone. Most people I've encountered so far are only close to me if they have a favour to ask of me, but I don't deny the fact that I do that too. HUMAN FOLLY. Homo sapien quirkiness huh? So since this is inherent is it therefore acceptable? Must you have a motive before you actually get to know someone or do you do it "just because"? I don't know. Perhaps I'm a little bit off now.

But I'll be ok. Even if I'm not I won't tell you. Cos like wad Peishan said to me during the last morning games today - "VAN! I don't care, all sad people must be happy today." How did she know??? Shanshan knows everything :)