when time and confusion collide

the name is vanessa but everybody calls me van. estranged ex-NJCanoeist of 2004/05 K2-500m. I'm a WSO (FIGHTER) trainee and I'm doing my BA(Hons) English and Politics in the University of York. I like fast cars, literature, art and tulips. I cannot cook. When I was younger I wanted to be an astronaut. I am hopeless at math or anything remotely related to formulae. I detest parsley. I love the colour burgundy. My Macbook is my bestfriend and I've played with Macs since I was 15 so no, I didn't jump on the bandwagon. I have lofty dreams but I'm often afraid to chase them. I don't get angry I get disappointed. I intend to learn Spanish and German. Oh, and I think Liverpool kicksmajorass - I am not a fair-weathered fan. I think ambiguity is beautiful.

DECEMBRE/DECIEMBRE/DECEMBRO
02 -- Thong's bday
05 -- Shumin's bday
07 -- Howeeeeee's bday
08 -- Daddy's bday
09 -- Commsparade!
11 -- Politics exam, snowball
14 -- MY bday!!
15 -- End of term!!!!!!!! To London.
17 -- 07
18 -- Flying home!
19 -- Touchdown 1855 SQ321
30 -- Back to London

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I'm supposed to Organize My Life but I am LAZY. So to relieve the insane amount of guilt I have managed to stay out of my room the whole day. Which also means that I don't have access to my notes, which also means that all I have done this morning is some art and read some Silas Marner. Weejin says "Eh must study k? revise!". Having given my assent, I now find myself doing anything but revising. Obviously, since I'm online typing this now.

Change. I know it's supposed to be Change is good, a la Who Moved My Cheese?, but I guess I hate change. Isn't it better when everything is boringly safe? When you totally zap the element of unpredictability out of our unpredictable lives? Sure, then life would be like sitting in front of a wall and watching paint dry but hey, what happens if I like to watch paint dry? What you gonna do about it? Nyeh.

I can forsee things taking a sick twist, actually. It's THE time that the peak of the sinecurve is way behind, and you're sliding down. Deterioration, much like Charlie Gordon in Flowers for Algernon. Exhausted I am. (Getting into the whole StarWars aka Yoda mode) Feeling the pinch, yes. I don't understand how some people can act as if nothing ever happened, and that things are normal. It's not. It's CHANGED dammit, can't you see? Freaking apathetic. Maybe I was wrong right from the start. Now, don't you start changing the topic. It's about you you you but you just don't get it. Hah.