when time and confusion collide

I just realised, last night when I was trying to fall asleep, that I don't need you.

I have all that I want, all that I need. TRUE friends who won't abandon/avoid me according to their whims and fancies. True friends who'll be there for me come what may. Friends who won't even dream about betraying me, who won't use rhetoric to win me over. Apart from that, I know that there's someone who cares for me more than you do and I'm really glad that I was smart enough to make a good decision. Maybe I was weak in the past, but I swear, I won't ever be weak again. No more catering to your whims, no more giving a shit about how you are.

Ask me if I'm upset about the friendship? Well, perhaps I was, but now, I'm numb. I don't really care anymore since the image you put across to me was just so darn farcical. If the friendship meant anything to you, you wouldn't have avoided me in the first place. It's very telling, all your actions (which, by the way, happen to directly contradict your words), they just scream "I'm a LIE" in bold letters, font size 857583478572. I guess I was really really stupid to think that you bother, and I'm sick of bothering on my part.

People may notice how things have changed, but honestly, I haven't changed one bit. It's plain ol me right from the very beginning. You're the one who's changed so much, I can't even recognise you anymore. Not that you knew me back then, but it all comes back to me in the end. I don't know if you'll ever read this, but if you do, I hope nonchalance makes you OOZE happiness, till your cup of joy is practically overflowing.

I'm sorry it had to end this way, but you know what? I think it's worth it, since I was blind enough to think that you were any different from the rest. When will there be denouement? I don't know. Perhaps there never will be. You're an angel, but a very cataclysmic one. Amazing isn't it, how one can just turn your life upside down just like that. I know I'm being queen bitch here, but no more Mr Nice Guy. I can hurt people just like I've been hurt, only I'll never ever stoop to YOUR level of pure callousness and crass.