The pain, it coursed through, without any warning. I honestly thought I was going to pass out and cap on my boat today. It was after my first set of fartlek, when I was turning at the buoys near shore. The very familiar pain that I last felt on April 5th when I was hospitalised - yes it came again. Sharp and cutting, it was enough for me to stop rowing completely. Like a sucker punch delivered straight to the lower abdomen, I started seeing double, triple. Looked down and saw my hands trembling, my knees shivering. My boat, it was rocking crazily, but I thankfully had that little ounce of reflexes left to to tap hard and not capsize. The sharp pain went away after a while but the light-headedness didn't. It got better towards the last set of fartlek and faded completely during pacing, but I'm scared.

I don't want a relapse of anything. I don't want to be sent to that cold, sterile hospital again. Neither do I want to have any more ultrasound scans or blood tests. I don't want to discover that there's anything abnormal, not that there isn't ALREADY. I've really had enough of the health problems this year, and I know that I'm not gonna let it get me down anymore. I'm gonna train through the pain, till it crosses my threshold and I collapse. I'm really sick and tired of having to back out because of health problems. I don't want to be weak anymore.

What's going on? What's happening to me? That was what constantly ran through my mind as I struggled but failed to keep up during the fartlek (which is usually my forte). Helpless, and vulnerable, and if it wasn't for Huiying, Chit and Rach, I wouldn't have lasted. Thanks guys. K1 girls jiayou :)