Went down to Kallang today to train. Was an informal training though. Covered quite a lot of mileage as compared to previous trainings. I think about 7-8 km. I'm extremely proud of people like Xintian, Rachel, Mindy, Cindy for improving so much in such a short period of time, and I'm just glad that I could be of help. The greatest gift to me is to see them progress, be it massive or minute, it still means a lot to me. Of course, it is largely their own effort that they could be where they are, but I feel somewhat heartened by the fact that I could be there for them, offering them encouragement.
Had a rather longlonglong conversation with Justin over sms today. Talked about.. life in general. Sometimes I feel like I'm so alienated from the world. Like I'm a martian yet to be oriented into this planet. It's like I'm observing everything around me through a different pair of eyes, not my own.. like I'm separated from my physical self, and the world just vibrates around me. Odd. Freaky. "The world's a rollercoaster and I'm not strapped in" There are weird periods of time when I just find myself asking about my existence, and whether I really DO exist in the first place.
Anyways, I'm just surprised that Justin understands. I mean, not that I doubt him, but he just doesn't seem the type to -- to put it crudely -- give a shit? I mean I knew he could be deep if he wants to but to actually comprehend me is quite a big feat. Nv really met anyone who could FULLY understand. Most people would just nod and go "mmhmm, that's nice. yeah. cool.", saying they understand when they actually think I need psychological help. But he actually offered his own two cents to counter my own eccentric musings. Impressive. Thanks for listening =)
Vanessa Lim 2:32 p. m.
