I really don't know what to do.
So many things have been going on with the team, my family, my health.. everything. Life is one big, hazy blur. Somehow I manage to feel so amazingly picayune during training. Not able to do things that the rest can, and then being criticised for it. The world somehow manages to inverse itself upon me. Honestly don't know why life throws you so many curveballs - and you're unable to duck? In the end all of us get hit right smack in the abdomen, in the heart, right where it hurts. Big time. Utopia seems so far away - so inconceivable.
Thank you to everyone who's shown me concern, and offered me their encouragement and support. Ben, Chewy, Justin, Malcolm, Thong, Daryl, Leepeng, Michelle, Rachel etc etc. When times are rough, we'll just stick together to the end. Despite the unreasonable circumstances, the team somehow WILL pull through.
Vanessa Lim 12:52 p. m.