PW's over. I had a compelling urge to just delete everything to do with PW2004 from my PC and my thumbdrive, but I felt this inexcplicable pang. I mean, this is something I've worked at for the entire year and, ZAP, it's just gonna go? Well, I honestly don't know. Maybe I'll keep the file around for a while more, until I get really sick of it.
Right now everyone's gonna think I'm insane.
Anyways, it's confirmed. K1 500m along with Leepeng, while Mich and Rach are gonna take the 1000 event. Xintian's in a K2 with Huiying, taking the 500m. I'm really looking forward to training with Leepeng especially. I just know we're gonna make it together. With SDBA in March, that'll be the time when everything should fall into place, I hope. The girls team may not seem to have much potential to others, but I guess eventually we'll prove all those who doubt us wrong. We work hard, and we're just ready to accept whatever challenges hurled at us. We may be scorned, doubted, slighted, in whatever way imaginable, but who gives a flying fuck what others think? It's our team, and we're gonna do it OUR way.
My ankle. Yes. It's not gonna heal. Ever. I'm positive. It's been what - 2 months? I don't know, but warning bells are ringing. I think it's time for an xray, or a scan or whatever. My mom says "I HAVE NO MONEY. YOU GOTTA WAIT FOR DADDY TO GET BACK." and I'm like, GOD, you don't even have the cash to send your daughter for an xray for something that's practically malignant??!! Sometimes, I don't understand her. It's not like I can't go to the hospital myself, not like I have no one to go WITH me even if she doesn't want to. I don't even think she realises the seriousness of the situation. It's just so, so frustrating.
Vanessa Lim 3:40 p. m.
