Vanessa Lim 1:30 a. m.
Oxford was super amazing. Thanks Jishan! Now I'm all psyched up to do my masters there and I AM GONNA STUDY VERY HARD. Photos soon! I'm lazy.
Jish came back with me to London so today we're gonna go to Greenwich and go shopping at Oxford St again! Oh and tomorrow's Hyde Park day, Friday's gonna be Tate Modern and I'm heading to Notts to visit Jinping toooo. Sunday's back to York! Wheeeeeeeeeeee.
Vanessa Lim 10:31 a. m.
London!
My suitcase weighed like 25kg and I had to lug it and a handcarry from Heathrow to Canary Wharf and up and down escalators that weren't in operation at like 7am in the morning. FUCK. I really could've died - shows how unfit I am now bleargh.
Having a little NYE countdown thingy at Leon's place! Curry for dinner woohoo. 2007 here I commmmeeeeee. On second thoughts - damn it I hate 2007 I just KNOW it's gonna be the downhill part of my sinecurve.
Vanessa Lim 5:32 p. m.
Ugh, my internet connection is a BITCH. It's taking forever to load pages cos of the taiwan earthquake thing. never mind. flying tonight!
SQ322 taking off at 2320 from Terminal 2 - which is basically the same details as the time I first flew.
People still owe me photos! Ahh and my camera is repaired so please expect lotsa London photos yeah :) I HAVE to visit the Tate Modern when I'm there this time!
Ahh it's almost 2007. So I've decided to make resolutions this time..
- Study. Like REALLY study.
- Shop less
- Do volunteer work
- Be more positive (the glass is half-full, van)
- Write in a paper journal every day if possible
- Take more photos
- Concentrate more on art
- Go to the gym. FREQUENTLY.
- Smile more
- Travel!!
You'll see a new me returning back from York :) Till July 2007! Will miss everyone to bits. xxx
Vanessa Lim 8:32 a. m.
Updated schedule: (You know you're really jampacked when you have to start squeezing in people for breakfast and tea)
27th - Lunch+shopping: Zurong. Dinner: TEAM!
28th - Lunch: CPT Aaron. Tea: Angwei, Yeemeng. Dinner: artsfac girls (??)
29th - Breakfast: IJ girls. Lunch+Movie: Howe. Dinner: Airwing officers
30th - Lunch: Family. Dinner: EMPTY (flight is at 2320)
Watched Night at the Museum with Zurong and Yunhui. (With my sister coincidentally also watching the same thing and sitting behind me too) It actually wasn't as bad as I'd expected it to be. At least it had a PLOT. (Unlike some movies like TokyoDrift) Though it was corny at times at least it wasn't predictable. Had me at the edge of my seat actually. Ah and Yunhui can drive, and he's one of the very few people I can sit in a car with and feel really really safe on the roads - like I know that he knows what he's doing.
I promise. Really.
Vanessa Lim 3:44 p. m.
Change.
The car changed. BMW 3-series now. Don'tlikeit. Orchard changed. Stupid wisma underpass closed - irritating. People changed. Justin updated me yesterday on so many things about people that totally shocked me. The weather in uk changed. subzero, they say.
I hate change.
I know people who read this blog think that I'm damn lucky. I've got it all. Scholarship, career, opportunity to study in a top university.. but you know if I had the chance I'd rather work for it step by step. Climb the ladder slowly but surely, NO SHORT CUTS. I'd trade it all to be more in touch with myself, to be more sensible and more...
human. I don't look for much success in life.. I don't see how being a topgrade careerwoman will ever atone for a lack of character. I just wish I were a better person -
I know you do too. I know we both don't like the people we are now and we wish to change for the better. To put the past behind us and to just embrace the present.
We'll still be there for each other.
"Shine on, you were meant to."
Vanessa Lim 10:05 a. m.
I suppose to some people, it's easier to let their emotions show - but I'm just not like that. I cover everything up. You say I live a lie. I say I just don't wear my heart on my sleeve like a freaking brevet. I don't think covering up my emotions is LYING. I just don't see the point in being moody around people and affecting their moods so I just try my best to bottle it all up. Is that a bad thing? Does that make me a worse person? IS IT WRONG? It's just how I do things, my own prerogative. I choose not to publicly display what I feel deep down because I just don't wanna affect the people around me. I don't open up to people easily - tell me is that WRONG?
Another constellation dies
Do what you want 'cause it's your own sky
Just call me when the phone stops ringing
Thanks for coming by
I'm just glad I'm on your good side
Where it's smoldering or freezing
It's never all that easy to decide
This is the land of a thousand words
But it seems so few are worth the breath to say
Except I'll be looking after my own world
And you just keep on saving the day
I'll try to stay but it's in vain when you're far
I'm on the run to wherever you are
Vanessa Lim 4:56 p. m.
